Sickness and our scripts may be closely aligned. When we get sick, there may be a script running inside of us such that we become sick in a myriad of ways. Our scripts are delicately individualized, intricately layered within and amongst each other, and are created by our perceptions of our early existence inutero and reinforced by our perceptions of life-unfolding experiences.  When we create these scripts/archaic beliefs, we may conclude that they have seemingly worked for us to some degree in an effort to provide safety, a defense against whatever we perceive to be dangerous and threatening to our welfare.  Examples of archaic beliefs have to do with “what I make _____ (something) mean about me” and may include: it’s all my fault; I shouldn’t be here; I’m too much; Something’s wrong with me; I’m wrong; I don’t matter; I’m bad; I’ll die, etc.

While inutero and during the time around our birth, our defenses are quite primitive at best as we attempt to accomplish complicated and intricate developmental agendas, and ward off pervasive powers that may seek to permeate our little systems. Our individual experiences and perceptions guide our developing archaic beliefs while we are yet so small. As we age in life, the voices in our head that continues to run rampant with incessant mumblings of our archaic beliefs are the work of the ego, as described by Eckhart Tolle in his book A New Earth, as well as the fearful, sad, and/or angry unexpressed energy of our child ego state that may range in age from our prenatal time through the years as a child/adolescent. These powerful states reside within our body. When we are in our ego, we are in our kid/child ego state – and when we are in our kid/child ego state, we are in our ego.

We may intuit and have a accurate sense of our kid’s chronological age when he/she has suddenly shown up inside of our seemingly adult body, and is attempting to take charge of our behavior, potentially creating havoc on the dynamic stage of our adult life. It only makes sense that when we are in our adult ego state, we behave in such a way that reflects our current chronological age, whereas when we are in our kid/child ego state, we behave in a way that is from a much earlier time in life, and may likely mirror the chaos, confusion, sadness, anger, fear, etc. that we didn’t get to express in our early years, but may be leaking potentially deepening puddles of repressed emotions and unmet needs – in the current day of our current adult life.

We may come to realize with time that our individualized archaic beliefs (originating from our wounded child inside of us), as well as the the persistent egoic energies (both of which can surface and run rampant inside of us within a millisecond) do not serve us in healthy ways. As described by Eckhart Tolle, the ego shows up within each of us and its job is to find the evidence in life to support our archaic beliefs. When the ego is at work within us and we think we have just proved our archaic belief (e.g. I am bad), we may believe we are right in believing what we believe (e.g. I am bad), but that is not the case. We have only fallen victim to the slippery slope of a blatant lie. We may overtime be more ready to acknowledge that the archaic beliefs and egoic energies are simply illusions, yet it’s our tenacious grip on these archaic beliefs and on the egoic energies that keep us attached to their luring lies about us. They may likely wreak havoc, create chronic dysfunction, and foster disease within us.

As prenates, we may latch onto these scripts because we are so vulnerable and defenseless early on in our existence, and we may likely believe we are the sole reason for whatever wounding may be happening to us while inutero, whether it be physical, emotional, spiritual or energetic in nature.  We may feel alone, afraid, sad, angry, etc. and inaccurately sentence/punish ourselves for potentially a lifetime.  But the accurate truth is that the archaic beliefs are inaccurate illusions, far from the truth about who we really are in our being (i.e. pure, whole, good, etc.). The woundings that may have happened to us early on blur our experiences and our perceptions concerning the truth of who we really are, if we will but perceive our beingness before the wounding occurred. In our humanness, we attach to the woundings and we make meaning about ourselves in relationship to the woundings, and we forget who we really are. Our beingness that exists before the woundings began, speaks of our pureness, wholeness and goodness as opposed to the bleak disparaging belief systems and the egoic voices to which we attach early on in our existence. May we find our way back home to wellbeing. The warm ambience of returning home awaits us.

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